I posted this video but I thought I would repost and divulge more into what makes me tick and the way I think.
I do often wonder if depression is a disease inherited from genes or just something we all go through. A patch. A blimp in day to day happiness.
For me, honestly, there are days where I really don’t want to get out of bed and face the day ahead. There are times when I’m ready to roll and excited. These sway day to day, week to week, month to month. Sometimes I feel rock bottom for very little rhyme or reason. Other times I feel like I’m on top of the world. Fortunately, I find that running keeps me focused on positives. It helps to focus on all the things that make me a better person.
The more ultras I run, the more I begin to realise that an ultra is a microcosm of day to day life. From the excitement of the beginning, the trials of mental and physical ability, to that reward of getting through.
Ultras hone us in on all that is great with our own achievement but the pains of getting there.
Someone asked me recently why I like the longer distances. Why I bother. Why I would put myself through them. My answer is I don’t know. All I know is that for a long time after I feel better. I feel like a better version of me. I feel happy.
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This week I have mostly been listening to George FitzGerald.
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Monday
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Tuesday – The “Clear The Head” Run – Easy 1 hour
I needed this run. Head full of negativity and feeling rather down. A quick blast up to High West and had to watch the boats and lights.
Sometimes you just need something to help the crap melt away. In my case: running.
“So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.”
F. Scott Fitzgerald; The Great Gatsby.
Distance – 7.3 km
Pace – 7:49/km
Shoes – Salomon X Series
Elevation – 445m
Nutrition – 1 soft flask Tailwind, 1 soft flask 500ml of water
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Wednesday – Exercises
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Thursday – Andy’s Exercises
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Friday – The “Remember Where You Come From” Run – Easy 2 hours
“The beginning is the most important part of the work.”
Plato; The Republic
Distance – 9.9 km
Pace – 7:46/km
Shoes – Salomon X Series
Elevation – 427m
Nutrition – 1 soft flask Tailwind, 1 soft flask 500ml of water
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Saturday – The Run That Never Was.
Issues with the ITB have put me back on the drawing board and talking to Andy about the best steps forward. With two weeks till TNF50 – this is looking unlikely. We shall see though.
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Sunday – recover and rethink.
See above.
The Trail To 100 Miles 